We gave our doggy to the blue cross a few weeks ago and I really miss him and I feel awful for abandoning him.

I think, in truth, we did do the right thing where the dog is concerned ... and It's purely selfish reasons for missing him ... but I went on their website today and saw his profile on there (which means that they havent been able to rehome him yet) and just wanted to go get him and bring him back.

He is such a lovely doggy and I had him since a pup (only 4 years) but his brother died on that boating holiday we went on and I loved them both soo much.

But ...

With both kiddies and us living in this top floor flat without a lift I wasnt able to walk him very often and during the day when the other half was at work, if the doggy needed a wee or a poo it was so hard to get outside with him. I would have to get both kiddies ready and manage the stairs with a toddler, a newborn and a super energised (under exercised) dog without falling arse over tit and killing myself or one of them.

But ...

I still miss him !

Oh ... and the worst thing ... we let Zak's ashes go in a place called the warred where we would walk the doggies ... and we promised Zak that him and Orion would be together again to run around the place ... and now ... cos we dont have Orion any more that isnt going to happen.

And I know it's a silly thing to be upset about ... and I know he's only a dog ... but I feel awful about it.